Sunday, 28 September 2008

my friend introduced me to this show probably a month ago.
saw a few episodes and i liked it
recently picked it up again
and wow i feel so close to it, as if its produced for me.
i soo wanna continue watching, but unfortunately
i dont have any storage devices to get it from my friend ):

and ystd was an ok day.
woke up at about 7
waited for a while doing i-dunno-what before rummaging thru my old stuff
and found this eminem cd i bought in sec sch days
took 4 songs out of it heh.
went to sim lim thereafter to buy a hard disk, but felt it wasnt worth
so walked over to suntec with zy to play some arcade.
gosh we died at the last boss -.-
i suck..
caught a movie later when david joined us. connected, apparently a reproduction based on the hollywood movie cellular.. kinda ok la..
strolled over to fisherman's wharf for dinner where i had an ok tasting salmon
then sat down and talk cock for a while, and by then i was really shagged out.
and lying on my bed, i was having the usual disturbance.
gosh.

right now theres so many things i wanna do.
but i dont know where or how to start,
and i dont even know if i will do them eventually.


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fucked up. my morning just got screwed.
i was taking this series of mini tests online..like btt and ftt
and my mum came over and ask "what are u playing"
i mean i was concentrating on thinking..and she used the word playing
so i kinda raised my voice cause im really irritated.
man i was pissed. cause to her whenever im at the com im playing.
even if im typing something important im playing.
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH HER!
maybe it sounds as if its nothing, but ive endured it everytime it happens
i really hate that feeeling.
its like the saf. like if the higher ups do something wrong its as if theres nothing wrong and they show no remorse.
but when we smaller beings do something wrong we get screwed like fuck.
seriously, sometimes i wonder if i will be better off alone.
as least i have to rely on myself and get to learn so much more in the process.


im jaded. out.

Friday, 26 September 2008

man i felt like the top of the world today.

hope to rebuild a new me

dont wanna be a maggi mee in a packet

EAT ME!

Sunday, 21 September 2008

lovely sunday morning
and i gotta book in way early to clean up my camp
what is wrong with those suckers!

in ns everything is lan lan..
especially if u got a shitty job with shitty pple.

and im fed up with life
i feel so lost, my future so bleak.
i dont see where im heading 5 years from now.
gosh that sucks big time.

softee

Sunday, 14 September 2008

saturday duty is terrible
but something else's worse.

churning and churning
shrinking and shrinking

sometimes whats the point of trying so hard,
when everyone else has already given up.. hor?

Wednesday, 10 September 2008

freakishly uber sad!
dunno what to do!!

mmph!

Monday, 1 September 2008

its either i wasnt sincere enough, or theres no god.
i believe the latter.
all of a sudden im lost,
and it happened way too fast.
just a moment ago, i was thinking of all the lovely stuff..
really just wasnt prepared for the next.

i thought i could..
but right after the "click", all fell out of place.
my stomach was churning, and i snapped wide awake.
now i really wonder why.
was it all thought over?
as in really really thought over?
cause i didnt have the luxury to think over anything.
but i have no complaints, only lots and lots of regrets.
memories may be sweet, but what about those bitter ones?
just like a basket of mixed fruits,
some are fresh, some are rotten, and others are unripe,
like those unaccomplished promises.

i feel like taking a hammer and start whacking myself.
i mean, what the hell was i doing?!
everyone wants to turn the clock back,
but yet everyone knows they cant..
im just like one of those idiots wishing for multiple chances,
although somewhere inside i know it may all be in vain

it all seemed so yesterday,
but yesterday was never enough,
and never will be...

-crossing every finger n toe-


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Who are you now?
Are you still the same
Or did you change somehow?
What do you do
At this very moment when I think of you?
And when I'm looking back
How we were young and stupid
Do you remember that?

No matter how I fight it
Can't deny it
Just can't let you go

I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Now look at me
Instead of moving on, I refuse to see
That I keep coming back
And I'm stuck in a moment
That wasn't meant to last (to last)

I've tried to fight it
Can't deny it
You don't even know

That I still need you
I still care about you
Though everything's been said and done
I still feel you
Like I'm right beside you
But still no word from you

Ohhhh
Wish I could find you
Just like you found me
Then I would never let you go (without you)

Though everything's been said and done (yeah)
I still feel you (I still feel you)
Like I'm right beside you (like I'm right beside you)
But still no (still no word) word from you