Friday, 29 June 2007

i know its not very nice to say very upset things,
but i think blogger is my favourite place to let it all out.
because when your greatest hope has given up,
theres certainly nothing you can do to pull yourself up.
annd probably no one else to go to..

it may sound crazy, but i think im moving closer to understanding sucidal people.
and i feel very upset for them because they are really at the edge
and having nothing to cling on to.
and if u dont feel that happening in your life, congrats.
but if u ever become one of those people,
u wont see the light even if u read this a million times over.



i feel so fucking pissed, so fucking disappointed, and so fucking upset.

life's is not a bitch until u die,
lifes still a bitch even after death
seems that lifeform really has nothing good to look forward to

Thursday, 28 June 2007

ya mid years are over. but so what.
i cant seem to bring my spirits up to celebrate

feel so unloved, if theres such a word
why cant anybody understand

can someone just shoot me.

Thursday, 21 June 2007

and now i wonder, what was it all for.

we always dont cherish what we have.
and we all know that very well.
but do i really have to fall to make you turn.
if so, let it be a lesson learnt.
because it crushes me inside,
all of it.

a story for u

once upon a time, there lived 3 little pigs...
their names are: da zhu, er zhu and san zhu.

...


haha no lah.
today i watched one of my fav cartoons
not spongebob!
but totally spies undercovers!!
wooh. and i saw the title. it says part 1.
means tmr is the continuation
and i have GP remedial.
!#$%^&*(
means i cant watch. i really wanna watch lahhhhhhhhh
fffffffffff!

and i finally got a reply from the game support guy.
he told me to enable cookies and disable firewall.
which i did..but i still cant play.
SIAN!
i wanna play....
oh well..

ok. studied econs today.
NIA, ec growth and money
MONEY MONEY MONEY!

haiya. i feel like i studied very little.
cause i think i study but dunno how to apply everything.
esp physics.
i think its gonna be very very tough.
and im going to get s.
s for sigh
s for sian
s for suck
s for stupid
s for ...

...

s for steff! =D

that was random.

ok..
played cs too today.
all the juicy knife frags.
hahaha.

I SERIOUSLY CANT WAIT TO PLAY CS WITH WK!
HE THRASHES 20 INSANE BOTS
AND OWNS HIS COUSIN 500 FRAGS TO 100!
OMFG!!

ps i ate one tube of pringles sour cream n onion today =D

Monday, 18 June 2007

nothing would have made me more sad
nothing could have...

Sunday, 17 June 2007

how many of u know that its fathers day before today?
hmm.
how come more people are aware of mothers day than fathers day.
cause mothers the best?

dad wanted to eat with us ystd. but too bad my sis is sick.
so i wished him happy fathers day
and told him we'll go and eat next week or smth.

went to visit my ah mah today. to get some dumplings.
and i really hate the conversations bw her n my mum.
its damn intense.
oh well. wish her happier days ahead.

oh shit. thinking thinking...and i forgot wad i want to say!
anyway anyway. this morning i couldnt wake
i saw 9.30 then i snugged myself nicely under the blanket.
and the next thing i saw was 11.04
and my aircon was off.
i must have been really tired.
and i felt so weak and hot.
and the wind that blew in was so chilly.

anyway i feel damn cold now.
and a little dumb.
cause i realise i dunno a lot a lot of things.
just hope i dun fall sick yA =P

ps. its really damn hard to be a wonder dad. learn to understand your pops people.
and totally random : this is not a response to your marriage thoughts, steff.

haix i really got no damn mood to mug.
throughout my years as a student, i was never like this.
yah its an important yeah blah blah blah.
i havent heard "this year is not so important"
every freaking year is important.
and yet..i hear "the past years are not important. this year is really crucial"

SICK. and especially pissed.

i have 1 week to cover 3 subjects.
but fucking dont save me!!

s.i.b.e.i s.i.a.n.



somehow, i cant feel anymore.
its like, i lost my powers.